
Document.
That was my first R.E.M record. Well, cassette. I bought it in the music section of Woolco in Port Hawkesbury soon after it was released. I remember the day that I bought it because a cute older boy I knew from school saw my selection and complimented me on it. I was introduced to R.E.M. by seeing the video for “The One I Love,” on CBC’s Video Hits or one of those horrible 80s video shows (we did not have Much Music).
That song hooked me. It came out at the perfect time for me. It was 1987, I was 14 years old and was outgrowing my Duran Duran phase and wanted something with a little more substance. It was a transitional time for R.E.M too, going from being seen as a college rock band to one with broader commercial appeal, without compromising their integrity.
That record still stands up 24 years later. R.E.M. always wisely resisted label pressure to incorporate some of the popular electronic tools of the day that makes so much of the music produced in the 80s sound dated, even kitchy today, in an effort to be more commercial.

I would lie on my bed for hours, playing Document over and over. R.E.M.’s back catalogue, surprisingly, wasn’t available at the Port Hawkesbury Woolco, so I eventually picked up, yes, cassette copies of their other releases when we’d go out of town for doctor’s appointments and could make a detour to a mall. Murmur. Reckoning. Fables of the Reconstruction. Life’s Rich Pageant. For the first time in my life, I fell head over heels in love with a band. I started buying copies of every music magazine that featured them, and began investigating other bands they were compared to or who were mentioned by members of the band in interviews. Pixies. The Smiths. 10,000 Maniacs.
But R.E.M. was my favourite band. They had a significant impact on my life and helped shape the direction that my musical taste would take. Then came Green. Then Out of Time, which propelled the band to a whole new level, popularity-wise. I stayed with them, but it was the records from their early period that were always closest to my heart. It was the same ritual every time a new R.E.M. record was released – for the first listen I would lie on my bed, with my eyes closed, taking in the music. I took them with me to university. Then came Automatic for the People in 1992, which contains some of the most beautiful lyrics Michael Stipe has ever penned. It was the first special packaging release that I ever picked up, it came in a wooden box with beautiful photos of the band members.

Then came Monster. I remember cutting class to go to the mall on the Tuesday it was released so I could be the first person to get my hands on it, this time in CD format. It was during this period when the first development that jeopardized the band’s future came. My beloved uni-browed drummer Bill Berry collapsed onstage in Switzerland after suffering a brain aneurysm. He luckily recovered, but he ended up deciding to leave the band and stay on his Georgia farm instead.

Then it was New Adventures in Hi-Fi, which has one of my favourite songs from R.E.M.’s middle ages, “E-Bow the Letter,” which also featured Patty Smith. Then came Up and, for the first time, I was not impressed. It was the beginning of the end of Most Favoured Band status for R.E.M. Oh, I still bought their records. I still paid my annual fee to belong to the fan club (I still remember that Athens’ zip code is 30603), for awhile at least. But their music didn’t excite me anymore. Around the Sun, released in 2004, was the first R.E.M. record I didn’t buy at all. By this point, they had ceded the title of “Nancy’s Favourite Band” to Modest Mouse, a title the latter claimed with the breathtaking album The Moon and Antarctica.
I still listened to R.E.M., but not as often or as much. But I always had a special place in my heart for them, for the role they played in helping me develop my musical taste.

Then in 2008, they released Accelerate, easily the best record they had recorded since New Adventures. It had a spark that was missing from the intervening records. They seemed to actually be enjoying making music again and weren’t overworking their songs in the studio. That spring, it was announced that R.E.M. would be going on tour with … MODEST MOUSE! I had never had the opportunity to see either band. The band that defined my youth touring with my favourite band of the past decade. Being a member of REMHQ.com, I was able to snag a 10th row seat. I had always said I didn’t want to see R.E.M. live unless it was under the best circumstances possible, i.e. from the front row. Well, I thought, 10th at the Molson Amphitheatre isn’t too shabby.
I met up with Steph, who was also going to the show and, through events that would take far too long account in what is already a massive blog, we ended up in the front row, in front of the adorable Mike Mills, for the concert. I saw R.E.M. and Modest Mouse (and the National) from the front row! And it was one hell of a show. They performed a beautiful version of “Let Me In,” the song Michael Stipe wrote for Kurt Cobain. Johnny Marr joined them for “Fall On Me.” Michael was animated and engaging, doing crazy dance moves, dashing all over the stage. Peter Buck could still jump, although maybe not as high as he once could. Mike Mills smiled at me. I actually got to see them perform live “Begin the Begin” and “7 Chinese Brothers.” And, finally, I got to experience a live performance of “The One I Love,” the song that started my love affair with them. I even enjoyed the Accelerate tracks they played.

If I hadn’t had that experience I think I’d be feeling very differently today, hearing that they had announced their breakup. I was at work when I found out and I said, “I don’t know how I feel about this.” I think I was more upset upon hearing about the White Stripes breakup earlier this year because they hadn’t been together as long, hadn’t put out as much material.
If it’s truly an amicable split, then I guess you can’t ask for more from them. R.E.M. played its first show April 5, 1980, a date celebrated as “R.E.M. Day” by the band’s fans. They were together for 31 years, put out some amazing music, played an important role in the development of college rock, helping to pave the way for bands to come, who now are generally referred to as falling into alternative or indie rock genres. They’re in their 50s now, they all have other projects – musical, film and otherwise.
So thanks Berry Buck Mills Stipe (how they were always referred to in the writing credits when they were a four-piece) for everything you did for American music. And how you helped one kid in a small Cape Breton town explore new music in an age before the Internet.